1 Year Check Up

We successfully returned from Jasper 1 year check up with Dr. John and am thrilled to report that for the first time in months, we went to the doctor and we were 100% healthy! Jasper was 25 lbs 1 oz and was 31 inches long (both were in the 75-90%). Big guy, full of love and smiles!

Jasper's 1st Birthday

We had an amazing day yesterday celebrating Jasper's birthday with family and friends. I do believe he was overwhelmed by all of the attention but loved every minute of it. Thank you to everyone for making it so special, Jasper may not remember it, but Kelly and I will treasure the memory of this birthday.

We topped off our afternoon of partying with an Asian themed dinner party with friends complete with a couple's talent show and some let me just say very interesting board game playing. I do believe it is safe to say that I learned some new and interesting things and found out that not only are Kelly and I blessed with great friends, we are blessed with very talented, comical and well rounded friends.

Birthday.....hesitation.

Well, it is here, Jasper's first birthday. It is unbelievable....absolutely. I was recently asked if things in "my world" were going to slow down anytime soon, my response was simply. I don't know. The past year has been somewhat of a blur to say the least and I do believe I have experienced every emotion imaginable.
Jasper's first birthday, for me, is bittersweet. I am ready for him to become like the little person that Danica has become but...this is it, our last first birthday party. I think Kelly will tell you he is beyond ready for the first birthday to be behind us. Irregardless I face the weekend with great joy that our family has such a great milestone to celebrate and yet another year to face head on. The year will be hectic yes, but it is our hope that it brings us joy and new adventure as well! Be on the lookout for birthday pictures....coming soon!

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I am not sure when it happens or why it happens but at some point in time very few things matter but the people that surround you each and everyday and unconditionally think that you are an okay individual. I have learned over the last year especially, that relationships change, relationships evolve and you can fight it, you can question it but inevitably you can't change it. I am a very different person than before I had children, not better, not worse, just different.

Why tonight do I sit an share these thoughts on this blog, I don't know. How is that for an answer. Is it because I am looking forward toward a first birthday party that I so much want to be excited for but deep down inside I am sad that my little guy is hitting this milestone? Is it because my little girl told me tonight "I love you so much" and it made me realize that her love, her brothers love and her fathers love are more important to me today than they were yesterday? Is it because I have two sick babies and I feel so helpless in their fight to feel better?

Helpless...I have had that feeling more than once this past year, but as new friendships have grown, old friendships have changed and I have settled into the fact that after almost 7 years, this is who I am, helpless is merely a feeling it will come and it will go. I need to give myself more credit and the people around me more credit. 2010 brough superior highs and "bubble bursting" lows and as I look toward this next year I will continue the fight and remember always that I am surround by love.....so much love!

Okay....I am done with the babbling, get used to it though, I am going to try to blog more often than once a month--my thoughts are often random. Hold on : )

Jasper getting ready to eat "snow ice cream!"

Danica playing in the snow!

Jasper's First Haircut....and one of us is Binky Free!

Danica is "binky free" for almost 2 weeks now, and it didn't even take 2 steps. Danica wrapped up her binkies for Santa on Christmas Eve and after a very long bedtime routine spent her first night without her beloved pacifier. After two days of struggles at naptime only by Monday, December 28th, Danica was completely binky free. My advice to anyone getting rid of a pacifier start sooner rather than later!

Jasper got his first haircut today, he did super! And, as is typical with a second child the picture is before his haircut....I didn't take one when he was all finished, but take this mom's word for it he looks adorable!